what do you do when what you know and what you feel are two completely different things? "follow your heart," some people would say, but what if you know your heart is wrong? do you override it with reason and "common sense," leaving it behind in the dust? should I try and wait for it to catch up, though it doesn't seem to be coming? when i feel like throwing caution to the wind and running away from all i know... dare i? should i do what is right, what i know i ought, when my heart isn't in it? would it still be the "right" thing then? what do you do when reason sounds like rubbish... when you know all the right answers but they are merely "the right answer"?

i want to give up, but i can't let go.

all anyone ever wants is to be "good enough," whatever they have learned it means.