Unable to Connect


Feeling disconnected. From the world. From friends. From God. Not quite sure why. Feel like it's my fault somehow. Like I'm not trying quite hard enough. Just like in everything else. *shrug*

to the void.. in case it's listening..
I've been feeling a bit off lately and for a while, wasn't sure why. Now I think I know: loneliness. Not your usual kind, that some quality time with friends and family will easily cure. It's hard to describe. Sure, it feels a better for a little while, but afterwards it comes back, keener, more insisent. I've also been very tired. All the time. The kind of tired that no amount of sleep seems to dispel. Hoping it all goes away. By itself. Soon. Doesn't seem likely, but I wouldn't know what else to do anyway.

"If It's Magic"

If it's magic...
Then why can't it be everlasting
Like the sun that always shines
Like the poets in this rhyme
Like the galaxies in time

If it's pleasing...
Then why can't it be never leaving
Like the day that never fails
Like on seashores there are shells
Like the time that always tells

It holds the key to every heart
Throughout the universe
It fills you up without a bite
And quenches every thirst

So...
If it's special
Then with it why aren't we as careful
As making sure we dress in style
Posing pictures with a smile
Keeping danger from a child

It holds the key to every heart
Throughout the universe
It fills you up without a bite
And quenches every thirst

So...
If it's magic...
Why can't we make it everlasting
Like the lifetime of the sun
It will leave no heart undone
For there's enough for everyone

- Stevie Wonder