Yesterday ...
I missed church service because I didn't have a ride. After waking up again much later in the day, I spent the majority of what was left of the day running around frantically and calling people repeatedly...(sorry =p) in an attempt to finally enact this vague idea/plan I'd come up with a while ago and never was able to carry out. As some of you know, I'm really not very organized at all... neither am I any good with planning. So... my somewhat impulsive decision to actually do what I'd been thinking of doing left me to run around campus trying to make it all work. In the end... it didn't turn out quite the way I'd wanted it to, i was an hour late, and i was pacing around b/c of all the adrenaline in my system...but it was all ok and absolutely worth all the running around and temporary stress. The only reason I've posted this up is... to relate...this:

I've learned...
that I really need to work on my planning/thinking ahead skills, like making lists, starting earlier (which probably means being less ... impulsive)
that as my friend said, "We plan, God laughs." (thank you God, for that pan. don't know what i would've done without it...maybe make... a big, flat brownie... or mini brownie cupcakes???)
that as another friend said, "It's all about the connections." I have THE COOLEST friend, whom some of you might know. I couldn't have done it without him... thanks for the idea, the motivation, an almost ideal time slot where almost everyone could make it, again... the pan, and most of all... my friends who showed up... who are all really cool too =)

You will truly never know how much it means to me simply that you showed up, busy as you are, without knowing what it was for and what was in store for you. You make me =)

puzzles. i love puzzles. of many kinds. i used to play with them all the time when i was little. i liked them so much that i wouldn't mind doing the same one (or ones) over and over. it got so that i could look at a piece and instantly recognize where it was supposed to go and what should be next to it. one of the coolest things about puzzles is that as you put pieces together, you begin to see small glimpses of the final picture. for example, my little mermaid puzzle... a rock there, a fin there, a tail at the bottom, and flounder and sebastian on the side. finally you finish the puzzle get to admire the picture as a whole.

and why am i talking about puzzles randomly on my blog in the first post i've written in almost a month? because i saw this today:

it's awesome looking back and seeing how everything pieces together
but then..at the same time
it's also exciting thinking about the future, and how the final puzzle will look
--who said this?

in my friend's profile. and that reminded me of puzzles... real puzzles that i love to solve and put together, and how from our perspective... we are a part of a big, intricate puzzle that will be beautiful in the end... but for the time being we have only glimpses of the big picture.... just like when i was little and making puzzles. and the final image when the grand puzzle is done will indeed be an amazing masterpiece such as we cannot imagine.

ahhhhh. weddings are so busy. especially since i'm in the house w/ my godfamily (family of the bride) and the bride herself. brief explanation for those who don't know about my unique... "family" situation. one of my best friends is also my godsister. her entire family, aunts, uncles, cousins and all are family friends and not really related to me or my family in anyway, but we may as well be =P. i even get a pretty pink "family member" flower to pin on my dress. craziness. the whole house is so busy. but yay! wedding! got here bright and early in the morning to help out w/ preparations. they made me try on this extremely lacy and pink dress. eek. it's gorgeous... just maybe too much so for me? haha. i think i just have an aversion to very lacy or otherwise very decorative things. i prefer simplicity. i suppose another part of it is that i don't like all the attention...too much. too much picture taking and fuss. oooooh, everyone looks so pretty/handsome =D. i'm going to be tiiiiiired. okie, back to helping/reading. i'm going to get that book back to you soooooon, phoebe.